Monday, October 26, 2015

Apologies for What I Must Do

Cerra Castle: Great Hall
10-26 02:59:00 YC 117
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Ryven strolled into the great hall, dressed in all black, with a black cloak billowing slightly from his hurried entrance.  He shuddered to stave off the cold and resumed his advance, finding a seat by the same fire that seems to have drawn others into its glow.  He pondered how people share that same trait with moths.  Thal Vadam had been playing the flute, and apparently Shalee had interrupted him with her arrival. She had just apologized for the interruption.

Thal smiled at her. "Oh you didn't...I was just finishing"

"It was very pretty." Shalee replied, her voice soft.  Her blue eyes slanted away and lingered on Ryven.


Ryven sat and removed his gloves, his ring finger still missing from his right hand. He turned his palms out toward the fire, warming them.

Thal and Shalee continued conversing and Ryven overhead bits and pieces, mostly about Shalee's daughter, some about Tigerfish.  Ryven's mind was focused on what Justice demanded he must do.  Yet, here he was, sitting in the great hall, delaying, postponing.  He stared into the fire, it's dance painting murky images, fleeting and never fully formed before they transformed into something new. 

He wasn't sure how long he had been lost in thought, dreading the task before him, when Shalee and Thal both left together.  He watched them as they left.  He glanced around the great empty hall, determining that he was alone.  He shrugged to himself and continued trying to pry some sort of solace from the flames.  After a while, he found himself humming a tune whose origin he could not remember.  He leaned back in his seat and continued humming the simple but solemn tune.  The words came back to him and he sang them softly to his audience of stone.

I knew an old man, many years ago.  
Stories of faded days by dying fire's glow. 
He washed his hands, couldn't wash his soul.

On the cold dark nights, many years before.  
He spilt his sins on the cold stone floor.
I held his hand, urged him toward the door
 

He breathed his last, never to rise again.  
He doused the lamps, the lights within.
His ship has gone, I'm alone again.
 

I hung the lamps, high in the halls.  
I walked the path, I held the pall.
Memories fade. All men fall.

 
Ryven hummed the final measure and then fell silent, the great hall's stillness now palpable.  He sat and embraced the stillness, knowing it would be the last such peace he would have this night.  He glanced around, seeing he was still alone.  He pulled out a cigarette.  "Fuck it." He muttered, and lit the cigarette, the sudden rush of nicotine sending a wave of euphoria through him.  He felt his tension ease considerably, as though it all drained down through him and into the stone.

Shalee returned only moments later, while Ryven was still smoking the first cigarette.   She hesitated briefly before making her way over to him.

"Good talk?" Ryven asked, taking a drag off his cigarette as she approached him. 

"Mmmhmm." She smiled sweetly, as if nothing in the world was awkward. "Good...cigarette?"

Ryven removed the cigarette from his mouth and stared at it momentarily, as if trying to decide if it was or not. "About average?"

She gave a little nod of her head, "Ah..." She then took a seat opposite of him and smoothed her hands along her dress. "Quiet night, not that I am complaining."

"You should've been here ten minutes ago.  Like a cemetery in here."  In more ways than one, he thought.

She glanced about the hall then over to the window, watching the snow falling. "I don't mind. It beats the chaos that has been going on."

"I wish I could say I didn't thrive on the more chaotic times." He sighed heavily.

"What a curious thing to say. We've been under near constant attack last week. Why would you thrive on that?" Her voice was full of curiosity.

Ryven shrugged. "It's in my blood.  I don't like that people are dying.  But, I'm the type to run toward the sound of gunfire." I always have been, even before I was me.

Shalee nodded. "Good thing you weren't here when it happened, lest you be blooded along with the rest of them."

"That's a fair observation.  Although, on the other hand, if I had, then the Blood Raiders might know terror." I terrify me. 

Shalee replied with a non-committal, "Perhaps."

"I don't let exsanguination go unpunished."

Shalee nodded. "Many people are looking for them. I believe Thal found some the other night. Perhaps you could join him." She paused. "Next time he goes out, I mean."

"Perhaps.  Though, that would only kill those Raiders.  I think I'd rather send a message to all Raiders."

"Killing those Raiders is a start." She replied.

"Sure.  Though, if you can't find those, perhaps you should consider sending a message to others." Ryven's voice was level, but his mind was still elsewhere, and every moment that passed increased his trepidation.

"And how would you go about doing that?" she asked, equal parts curious and nervous, thinking that bringing more attention to Cerra could be a bad thing.

Ryven had to admit he really didn't know.  He hadn't given it much thought.  It had just been his first impression.  So, he shrugged and gave a similarly impulsive answer. "It would have to be a pretty strong message.  I don't have specifics." He looked back at the fire, perhaps to find the answer in the flames. "Just seems like a lot of moping and not a lot of action around here lately.  It's fine to nurse your wounds.  But, it seems like it would be more effective to either go on the attack or plug the massive holes in the defenses."

His answer clearly upset Shalee. "Yes. So your idea is to do 'something'...." she mimed quotation marks with her hands. "Jeez. Wonder why I hadn't thought of that. You're a brilliant man, Krennel." Her voice dripped with sarcasm. She stood. "Now if you will excuse me." She stormed off into the castle. 

Ryven sighed to himself, alone again. "If you don't like the answer, don't ask the question." He said to no one, his voice lost in the air of the great hall.  He sat for a moment, steeling himself for what he could no longer postpone.

Ryven spoke then to Justice, who had only just arrived. "You ready?" 

Justice replied: I am always ready. You have dallied here long enough.  Enough hiding.  Do not fear what you are.  Be my instrument.

Ryven knew the futility of fighting it.  He just nodded and lifted himself wearily from his seat. "If that is what I must do."

He walked solemnly out of the hall, passing through reception like a ghost and out into the night, leaving only the faint remnants of his smoke clouds lingering in the air of the hall.

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10-26 YC 117  04:30

The old man shivered uncontrollably, the straps that held him to the old wooden chair straining against him.  He looked to be around eighty years old, a baseliner, with wispy white hair wreathing his bald pate.  His eyes, brown and bulging, were tinged yellow from a slowly failing liver.  His skin was semi-translucent, as though he were wrapped in onion skin.  Jaundice was beginning to set in, and he reminded Ryven of old paper, yellowed and dusty from wear.  He was a frail old man, but the fire of his spirit had not left him yet, and the journey Ryven was sending him on would offer no return.  Worst of all, Ryven had no idea why he was going to kill this man, nor why it was going to be in such a horrifying way.  Justice had decreed it.  He had to obey.

In addition to being bound to the chair, the old man was also gagged.  He had stopped fighting to be heard a while ago, and Ryven admired his acceptance of the inevitable.  The time had nearly come.

"I apologize for what I must do." Ryven spoke, his voice soft and, he hoped, soothing.  "Justice requires your sacrifice."

The man's trembling increased, the joints of the chair rattling.  He removed the man's gag, and he immediately began pleading, in whimpers for Ryven to spare his life.  Ryven stood, his face vacant, but inside he was a tempest of conflicting emotions.  He did not know this man.  He did not know why he had to die.  All he knew was that Justice demanded it.  The man's pleading finally subsided, and the old man simply asked the question: "Why?"

Ryven's resolve wavered in that instant, but only for the most fleeting of instants.  His voice, when he replied, was the cold merciless sound of inevitability. "Because Justice demands it."

Before the old man could respond, Ryven picked up the can of fuel on the floor.  He walked around the chair and lifted the can and upended it over the old man's head, pouring fuel that splashed in waves off of his bald pate.  It ran down his face, stung his lips, burned his throat.  It soaked into his soiled clothes and formed a puddle beneath his feet.  The man began whimpering again. 

Ryven walked back around the chair, turning to face the man, whose name he did not know.  Without a word, he pulled a lighter from his pocket, flicked on the flame, and touched it to the puddle on the floor.  The flames leapt up quickly, engulfing the man.  The rush of the flames was quickly drowned out by his tortured screams.  His flesh bubbled and crackled and slid from his bones.  His eyes popped and hissed, the fluid inside having expanded.  Then fire finally exhausted the oxygen in his lungs and the screaming stopped.  Yet, Ryven still heard it, echoing in his head, a siren.  He watched until long after the flames ceased their raucous feast.  The man was now a charred black statue of ash.  The stench finally overcame Ryven's gag reflex and he rushed to a corner of the room and retched, vomiting profusely until nothing was left to regurgitate.  Then he kept retching.

He ran out the door of the room, through the rest of the small home, and out into the night.  He ran, but he knew not where, nor for how long.  He succumbed to the blackness.


Sunday, October 25, 2015

He Who is Not Afraid of My Darkness Will Find Banks Full of Roses...

"But the worst enemy you can meet will always be yourself; you lie in wait for yourself in caverns and forests.  Lonely one, you are going the way to yourself!  And your way goes past yourself, and past your seven devils!  You will be a heretic to yourself and witch and soothsayer and fool and doubter and unholy one and villain.  You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame: how could you become new, if you had not first become ashes?"  Friedrich Nietzsche, Thus Spake Zarathustra

The Other Ryven's Digital Prison

10-25 YC 117


He did not know how long he had lain upon his face on the barren sandy beach beneath unfamiliar stars.  Waves rushed over his legs and feet, and salt and sand clung to his skin.  He pushed himself up off the ground, clumps of wet sand dropping and splattering below him.  He rocked himself back until he was on his knees, soaked and cold in the night air.  Everything was bathed in the silver of moonlight, and he spied the dead rock fixed in the sky above him, unfamiliar as this very beach.  He immediately began to piece together his memories, coming to him in waves, crashing on the shores of his consciousness, varied in their intensity and coherence.  He had wanted something, something vital.  What was it? He had been on the precipice of obtaining it.  Then, somehow, he ended up here.

What happened to me?  

He finally rose and began walking, forcing his mind to try to remember.  A name kept coming to him, Red.  Who is Red?  He continued walking along the beach, the water to his left.  The gentle whisper of the wind, the crash of the waves, the gentle rush of the water, all began to drown beneath the weight of his thoughts.  Other names and faces came back to him.  Leela.  Shalee.  The Imposter.  THE IMPOSTER.  He had wanted to free himself, to gain a new form, the form of a specter that could travel anywhere, unfettered by physicality.  A mind released from its chains.  What stopped me?  Or did I succeed?  Was this beach the holographic interstices?  Somehow, he doubted it very much.  Something about this place filled him with loathing...and rage.

The wind had picked up and the light from the moon had become blocked by a thick covering of clouds.  Where did this storm come from?  Rain began to pelt him, heavy and icy cold.  Then it turned to hailstones the size of apples.  He cried out in pain as they struck him and he felt his muscles bruise, his bones break.  He crashed to the ground and his face smacked hard into the wet sand.  He felt a hailstone crash into the back of his skull with a large CRACK and a wet smacking sound.  His vision went white and then just as suddenly, everything went black.


He was in a corridor on a ship.  He held a body, still slightly warm.  It was a woman's body, and as he blinked to gain focus, he recognized the woman's face.  This.  This is a memory.  Am I unconscious?  He was holding the dead body of his sister.  The sister he had killed.  He tried to scream, but his mouth would not open, his scream would not sound.

He was in a bedroom in a small home.  He was sawing something.  Something soft.  He felt the splash of a warm liquid on his face.  He became aroused.

He was at a dining table.  He was eating dinner.  There were two others at the table with him.  They weren't eating.  The realization finally dawned on him.  They were dead.  He heard his own voice asking them if they enjoyed the meal.  Then he heard his own laughter.

He was falling in blackness.

He awoke on a beach, facedown in the wet sand.  He pushed himself up slowly and came to a kneeling position.  This must be what hell is like.  He stood, his back straight, his head held high.  He smiled to himself.  His fear melted away as he took a few steps away from the water.  He laughed to himself, a sick laughter, full of a strange mixture of mirth and bitterness.  He closed his eyes and when he opened them, he was on the bridge of a ship, the Tovil-Toba.

This isn't hell.  Or, if it is, I am the devil.  




Tuesday, October 20, 2015

OOC: Extra Life

So, this is OOC, which I'm sure the title gave away.  On November 7th, I'll be participating in a charity event, live-streaming some gaming.  I joined a team, Atheist Gamers, who have set a goal of raising $5,000 for Children's Miracle Network.  I'm not going to guilt anyone or hit you with any aggressive panhandling.  I'm just informing anyone reading my blog that if you want to make a tax-deductible donation to a worthy cause, and then maybe watch me live-stream some horrible gaming on November 7th, you can make donations here: Extra Life

Yes, I realize that this totally has my real life name and photo.  Try to contain your excitement.  Unless your excitement drives you to donate, in which case, submit to your excitement.


Assurances

Leela and Zhou's Place

10-19  12:47


Ryven studied Leela.  He hadn't seen her since before he had left I.LAW and her absence had been more profound than he had realized until this moment.  She still had her short red hair and piercing green eyes, but there was a hardness now where before there had been none.  She had never been weak, but she had been caring, good, and kind.  He wondered how much goodness still remained.  He wondered how much of that loss was at his hands.  None of that was the purpose for his visit.  When he had contacted her the day before, it was not to make a social visit, but rather, due to his increased concern over the containment of the other Ryven.  Sahriah had made him second guess his trust in Leela's abilities, but more importantly her motives in keeping the other Ryven stored rather than destroyed.  

Leela studied Ryven.  He was different than before.  She was one of the only people to have known both Ryvens.  She had known the Ryven before Dr. Tobit implanted the imposter, who she was now meeting. That Ryven had been a violent and brash man, but he had still been a good man.  The imposter was also a good man, the one she had married.  The old Ryven, when he snapped, had given her no choice but to help the imposter.  Still, she felt guilt at having betrayed him when she owed him so much of her current happiness. 

Leela spoke first, her tone level. "So, I'm guessing you're beginning to question my decision to keep Ryven." It was not really a question, but she waited for Ryven to nod, and when he did, she continued. "You would prefer I destroy him outright?"

"He killed dozens of innocent people, kidnapped your fiance, and, oh, also that whole thing where he took the skin of his victims and, you know, made a coat out of them." 

Leela nodded. "All true."

"But?"

Leela continued to speak calmly, like a parent to a child asking a question they aren't quite old enough to really understand. "But, reasons.  None of which are any of your business."

Ryven was surprised by her answer.  "He took control of my body."

Leela shook her head. "He could say the same thing about you, now couldn't he?"

One point to Leela.  "I had no choice in the matter.  I didn't ask for this.  He made a choice."

Leela's expression showed she was unmoved. "He is confined.  He's safe."

"For how long, though?  Surely there are ways he could escape."

Leela nodded. "Sure.  But none of them without outside assistance.  Given that only a few people even know of his existence and literally all of them have every reason to keep him locked away, I don't see that eventuality coming about."

Ryven was not convinced, but, he wasn't about to force the issue.  The fact that the other Ryven was trapped at all was because of Leela.  If she refused to destroy him, he wasn't going to go against her wishes, even if he desperately wanted to.  If he was being even more honest, he would have to admit to himself that the other Ryven's only real fault was that he was completely mad.  He wasn't so sure that they didn't have that in common.  Ryven did mutilate a little girl, admittedly an awful one, and solely because he was told to by Justice.  Who is Justice, though?  I have to recognize it is entirely possible that Justice is entirely a construct of my own mind.  But, what about my experiences on that moon?  I didn't imagine that, did I?  The truth of the matter, Ryven had to admit, was that he was scared.  Scared of himself.  Scared of the other Ryven.  Scared of what would happen if the other Ryven ever returned.  Scared of his becoming just like the other Ryven.  Fear is useful, but fear is also a drug.  If we let fear control us, it defeats rationality.  We behave in ways that cause more harm than good.  We lose our ability to weigh options in favor of a system where we simply satisfy our fear.  
If Leela noticed Ryven's inner turmoil, she didn't let it show.  Ryven finally spoke. "I won't force you.  I owe you that much."

Leela's face tightened in obvious anger. "Yes.  You owe me that.  You owe Zhou that." She stood and gestured toward the door. "I think it's time you left."

Ryven glanced over at the door, saw her expression, and decided it probably was time for him to go. "It was good to see you."

Leela replied through clenched teeth. "You too."

Sunday, October 11, 2015

Sic Semper Tyrannus

Huola VII
Cerra Manor: The Terrace

10/10  21:54


Ryven strolled onto the terrace, having just landed his shuttle on the small landing pad a moment before.  He wore simple khaki work pants, black boots, a black shirt, and a black jacket.  A lit cigarette hung from the corner of his mouth.  He made his way over to the bar.  Behind him, Tara, the Searie successor, a girl of ten years of age, flanked by a pair of Cerra guards made her way onto the Terrace. She helped herself into a chair and ordered the servants around with a tone that made it apparent she expected them to tend to her every demand.

Ryven took a drag of his cigarette, exhaling out of the corner of his mouth in a narrow stream.  He watched the arrival of the little girl and her retinue, immediately forming a negative opinion of the little girl.  He poured himself a drink, amused by the spectacle.

Tara glanced over at Ryven, then tucked a napkin into her collar, preparing to enjoy her meal.
Ryven couldn't help but laugh at the sight of the child, so proper, considering the sort of debauchery that often occured here, or at least, occurred in the past.  He then felt a small pang of guilt, considering he had killed a man only a few feet from where she sat.

Literia, a young Brutor woman of impressive height and build, walked onto the Terrace wearing a long black duster. Her hair hung free down her back to her waist. She frowned when she saw Tara and continued on to the bar. Ryven raised his hand in greeting, but otherwise maintained his silence and sipped his drink.

Tara dabbed her mouth with her napkin and gave Literia a quick look before turning her face up slightly and away, "I trust you've taught your daughter some manners?" She spouted, without any hint of apology.
Ryven grinned slightly in anticipation of what might be some quality entertainment.  There was clearly some history between these two.  Some sort of quarrel, perhaps.

Literia furrowed her brow.  "Oh she knows them, I trust you have learnt some yourself.  She is only polite to those that deserve it."  She nodded then to the bartender and asked for a pot of tea.

Tara was nonplussed and simply replied, matter of factly, "Well, I deserve every bit. I am a Holder after all."

Literia stared at her flatly "And I care why?"

Ryven sipped at his drink, a Dark Amarrian, and considered the virtues of beating children.  Holder or not, this was not the sort of place where you should run your mouth or rely on fancy titles.  This was Huola, the sort of place that had spent considerable time at war.  War tended to make titles useful only so far as they come with a ransom.

Tara further cemented Ryven's opinion of her when she responded with "Because I rule over people who look like you."  Ryven felt his blood rise.  Sure, he had fought for the Empire, had even converted.  But, he was still an abolitionist, at least to the extent that slaves were treated as expendable.  From a doctrinal point of view, slavery for the purpose of instruction and religious education was fine.  Having slaves for the purpose of having slaves was another matter.

Literia had a ready reply.  "I dont give respect freely, it has to be earned."  She paused momentarily. "And you little creature have not earned it."

"I'll remember that when I beat my first slave." Tara said, then added, matter-of-factly, "I'm allowed to own them, you know. I'm a Holder."

Literia  showed no flicker of emotion.  Her face deadpan, she shrugged and accepted her tea.  Not content to end there, Tara taunted Literia further. "I'm sure I could own your daughter at some point as well. She'd make an excellent slave," She paused. "once I beat some manners into her."

Literia sipped her tea, not willing to rise to a child essentially throwing a temper tantrum.

Tara, still not getting the hoped for response, chuckled, "I think I'll have her work in the kennels."

Ryven had sat quietly, but his anger had continued to build slowly as Tara spoke.  He finally decided to break his silence and spoke in a stern tone. "You know, I think you should probably mind your tongue, child."

Literia looked over at Ryven "She is trying to start a confrontation with me and it will not work."

Tara's brow quirked and examining Ryven, she asked, her tone a mix of curiosity and condescension, "And you are?"

Ryven replied to Literia first. "She should remember she's not in her house."  Then, staring back at Tara, he answered. "I'm Ryven Krennel.  I fought for your Empire for years.  I married a Sebiestor who also fought for the Empire for years.  I also lived here, in this very house."

"Good for you both," She nodded firmly, "Some can be uplifted. But those like my father's slaves and this woman's daughter, for example, are beyond hope." She added, piously, "Sometimes it takes the cane and the whip to create a semblance of what it means to live as one of God's creations."

Ryven frowned. "And you're qualified to decide that are you?"

Tara replied with conviction. "I am a Holder."

Ryven laughed at the temerity of the child. "Oh? You administer the estate, do you?"

Literia just quietly sipped on her tea as Tara replied. "Not this one. My own in the north of here. An entire Holding, actually."

Ryven nodded, wondering how much control she really exercised. "So, you feel that simply owning a holding makes you somehow capable of passing such judgment?"

"God chose me to rule over others."

Ryven grinned at the simplistic answer. "Ah, so, you believe there have never been bad holders?"

"All Holders are chosen by God."

Ryven again nodded, but pressed on. "That's not what I asked.  I accept that all holders are chosen by God.  But, are all holders good?  Are they all equally capable?"  Perhaps he could make her think.

Tara responded quickly. "Of course not. Not all Holders are equal. It is why I am better than Rebecca Sakakibara."

Ryven laughed and Literia scoffed at her remark.  Ryven continued. "So, we agree that some Holders are not so good. So, I shouldn't trust your judgment simply due to your status. So, let's get back to your qualifications to pass judgment here."

Tara's reply was as expected. "But even the worst Holder is better than a commoner."

Kat had walked onto the terrace in time to hear Tara's comment. Ryven frowned and his voice took on a note of disappointment. "I see.  And, so, speaking to me right now, a Caldari, I assume you consider yourself my superior?"

Tara nodded. "Quite."

"She considers herself superior to everyone." Literia said, still enjoying her tea.

Ryven smiled a cold smile, devoid of mirth. "Tell me, little tyrant, who was it who created capsuleer technology?"

Kat looked Literia over, "Heya. How are you?"

Literia smiled at Kat "Oh, I am alright, How are you?"

Kat replied, "I'm okay, although I'd be better if a certain little monster wasn't." She was clearly referring to Tara.

Tara shrugged in response to Ryven's question. "Unimportant. Capsuleers are soulless husks."

Literia emote nodde her head in response to Kat's sentiment. "Oh defintely, I couldnt agree with you more."

Ryven chuckled. "It was the Jove.  The same ones who annihilated the Amarrian fleet effortlessly.  Strange, too, that they gave capsuleer tech to the Caldari rather than the Amarr.  Why is that do you suppose?"  Perhaps she could begin to understand that being chosen or not chosen by God was only the beginning.  That simply being born was not enough.

Kat and Literia continued to chat by the bar.  Tara's response was not what Ryven had hoped. "So? God gave the Empire the Templar. It matters not. The Empire survived the Jove. It will continue to thrive."

Ryven shrugged. "And yet, God gave the same tech to the other empires.  Perhaps we don't know God's will so well, hmm?"

"And God gave all of the Empires capsuleer technology as well. Perhaps you're simply blinded by your own arrogance."

Ryven grinned the toothy grin of a shark, cold and vicious. "Perhaps you should remember that if I so chose, I could kill you here, where you sit, and give absolutely zero fucks about it.  Nor would anyone likely do a damn thing if I did."

To her credit, Tara held his stare, unfazed, and spoke just as coldly. "Then you would make me a martyr and I would go to Heaven."

Ryven shrugged again. "Not every zealot who dies is a martyr, little one. Some folks are just dead."

"Not everyone is one of God's chosen. I am."

"So said every one of those useless assholes who are now dead and forgotten." Ryven quipped.  Something about this little girl truly and deeply engaged his sense of righteous fury.

Kat heard their argument finally, and came over, "So, the little psychopath is still alive, I see."

Literia looked to Kat with a sigh. "Yes, she wants to own my daughter and beat her senseless."

Tara replied to Ryven first. "I think you fear death more than I do," then she turned away from Ryven and looked at Katerina, "Hello, commoner."

Kat, never one to take shit from anyone, narrowed her eyes and spoke, her voice icy, to Literia. "Something tells me your daughter would be the one doing the beating, as long as we make sure the little psychopath doesn't get any knives."

Ryven laughed. "Fucking kids these days."  He wasn't really laughing though. You know what will happen if she doesn't learn. The voice.  Justice.

Literia smirked "My daughter has been trained in hand to hand combat since she was 7."

Tara waved a steak knife tauntingly at Katerina, continuing with her meal. She waved it around when the guards weren't looking, then would stop whenever they looked her way.

After a few times, Kat stepped in quickly, grabbed the knife from Tara, then stepped back just as quickly.  She started waving the knife tauntingly at Tara.

"How immature." Tara said primly.

Kat laughed. "Says the one who stabs people because they don't bow."

Ryven watched with interest, pleased to see he wasn't the only one who found this child irksome. Justice started up again. You know.  You know what she will become.  Ryven shuddered, unnoticed by the others.  You know what I require. 

Tara continued, unswayed by Kat's retort. "Everyone else is meant to bow before Holders."

Kat shrugged. "Good thing you'll never be a holder, then."

"I am a Holder." Tara responded sharply.

Kat laughed. "Oh, I see. They haven't told you."

Tara's eyes flashed. "Told me what?"

Kat waved her off. "Don't worry your young mind about it, you'll learn when you're supposed to."

Tara's voice was filled with contempt. "I'll remember to take Khanid slaves when I'm old enough."

Kat replied. "Go ahead, I'm sure you'll find enough slavers in Sansha's Nation and the Blood Raiders willing to sell to you."

Literia rolled her eyes. Then, she added. "Actually I know an Angel, that would take her."

While all of this had been going on, Ryven continued to struggle.  You know what I require.  Why do you hesitate?  Ryven's hesitation was really fairly simple.  She was a child after all.  Besides, would anyone understand?  She has to learn.  She has to learn, or she'll die a meaningless death when she encounters someone with fewer moral qualms than you.  Does that help?  Does that make it better?  Ryven wasn't sure.  I mean, yes, all of that was true.  He had killed a man a few feet from where Tara now sat, and for nothing more than spouting his racism about Ryven's wife, Leela.  This girl had done worse.  Justice.  Justice requires it.  She's suffered, but she needs to know.  She needs to learn.  Trust me. Ryven finally surrendered and lit a new cigarette.

He walked slowly, nonchalantly, over to within a few feet of Tara. Kat swiped the cigarette from Ryven's mouth, and took a drag before returning it.

Literia grinned a little wickedly "I know a few Sani Sabik that would take her too."

Ryven spoke softly. "You know, I've finally figured out what bothers me about you, little one." Not enough scars. Scars are an outward sign of the lessons someone taught us.

Tara glared at Literia, "You wouldn't dare."

Kat shook her head, "Nah, too annoying."

Literia stepped down off her seat and walked slowly over to Tara. "Try my patience again, and you will see what I am capable of.  You step foot near my daughter again and you will regret it."

Tara scoffed. "I'm a Holder."

Ryven shrugged. "Why wait?" With no warning, he grabbed Tara's wrist and jabbed the lit cigarette onto the back of her hand, hearing the hiss as it burned the flesh.

Tara screamed in pain, "AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH."

The guards rushed over to Ryven, placing a hand gently on his arm, "Sir, if you would please let her go." Ryven thought these were unusually polite guards.  Perhaps they had been around the last few times he'd engaged in violence on the terrace.  That might explain their demeanor.  He looked over and saw that Kat was offering him a bottle wordlessly.  While bottle-based murder was certainly one of his many skills, he didn't feel such a thing was warranted in this case.  Instead, he would give the guards a chance.

Ryven tensed his arm and spoke to the guards in a voice that made it very clear he meant every word. "If you value your life, I'd reconsider that."

The guards backed away slowly.

Ryven resumed. "You're about to learn an important lesson." His voice was calm and he spoke softly, meaning every word. "All the titles in the world mean exactly jack shit if people don't respect you."  He didn't wait to see if his words had any effect. "Pain is the best teacher, and this is going to hurt."

He turned his head to speak to Kat. "Knife please?"

Tara started to cry as the memory of watching her brothers and sisters get murdered in front of her while she watched helplessly started playing in her mind.  Ryven steeled himself to do what Justice required of him.  New Eden was a dangerous, cold, and heartless place.  A little bloodshed could make all the difference.

Kat calmly handed him the knife by the hilt before pulling out a chair and sitting down, kicking her feet up.

Literia tried then to intercede. "She is a child after all, dont hurt her please."

Ryven nodded appreciatively to Kat. He continued to speak to Tara. "Now, Tara, you take joy in owning people.  So, I want you to remember that, as of now.." He quickly used the steak knife to cut off Tara's ring finger.  It came off easily and blood gushed out of the ragged wound.  "...I own a piece of you." He took the severed finger and pocketed it, letting go of her wrist.

Tara screamed a bloodcurdling scream that echoed out across the water and off the buildings of the manor.

Ryven stood straight and turned to the guards. "See to it she's taken care of."

The guards tended to Tara, who was cradling her hand, wailing horribly.

Kat looked up at Ryven from her seat. "I didn't think you still had that in you."

"I'll kill you all!" Tara screamed as the guards carried her to the infirmary.

Ryven sighed. "I did what Justice required." He walked back to the bar and poured himself a drink, something fruity.

Kat kicked out a chair, hoping he'd get the hint, "Justice, huh?"

He simply nodded. "Justice." He then sat down in the offered chair. "How long do you figure before someone decides to arrest me?"

"I'd be more worried about assassins from the little twerp, honestly." Kat replied.

Ryven chuckled with more mirth than he actually felt. What the hell did I just do? "Oh, I imagine she'll be wanting her finger back at some point, so she may be a little hesitant, not knowing where I'll be putting it." You did what I required of you.

Kat laughed genuinely. "Oh, you're horrible."

Ryven shrugged. "I meant what I said. She had to learn. She definitely learned something just now."

Kat rolled her eyes. "Probably just that she'll have to wear her signet ring on the other hand. Her kind never learns."

Literia spoke then. "What lesson did she learn?  She is still a child, albeit a monstrous child that is pyschologically scarred."

Ryven frowned and decided to defend himself. "Oh. I see. So, you would prefer she go on thinking she's inviolable?"

Literia furrowed her brow. "The child needs professional help, not cutting off her finger."

Ryven, angry, shouted his response. "I WAS PROFESSIONAL!"

"Calmly, Ry." Kat said, quietly.

Literia shrugged her shoulders and shook her head disapprovingly.  She puts her tea cup down, and walked off the terrace.

Ryven shook his head. "She's now marred. Every other Amarr she meets will see it, and they will know."

Kat nodded. "I hope you're right. But you know how Amarrians get."

Ryven laughed genuinely. "That I do." He sipped his drink and decided to change the subject. "So, how've you been?"

"Well enough. Kid's asleep, thank God. You?"

Ryven shrugged. "I keep busy. Moved to null-sec. Still getting things settled."

Kat raised her eyebrows. "You? Nullsec?"

"Things change. It's where most of my comrades ended up, after all."

Kat replied. "Ahh...Triumvirate huh?"

Ryven nodded. "Seemed as good a place as any."

Kat chuckled. "If you say so."

"You disapprove?"

Kat shook her head. "No, if I have to be honest. But you know how us Legionnaires are." she tossed Ry a saucy wink.

Ryven shrugged. "A dime a dozen, only found in dozens, and otherwise easily eliminated?"

Kat laughed at the joke. "Fighting words there, Ryven Krennel!"

Ryven smiled. "I think we've had enough blood for one night, don't you?"

"That, and you couldn't hurt me."

At that moment Thal Vadam arrived via shuttle, dressed in black robes, but neither Kat nor Ryven noticed.

Ryven grinned. "I think you mean wouldn't."

"I'm pretty sure I mean couldn't."

Lunarisse Aspenstar returned from the shuttle, visibly tired, and made her way directly to the Guest House, while paging through a book.

Ryven shrugged. "You've acquired delusions of grandeur in my absence."

Kat nodded smugly, "Requirement for owning an Aeon in PL."

Reginald Sakakibara rushed onto the Terrace, walking immediately up to Ryven, "You cut off her ring finger?"

Sahriah BloodStone stepped off her own shuttle, having changed back into her usual mercenary uniform en route back to the manor. She walked up the path towards the terrace, clearly unhappy. She stopped right beside Regi, her arms crossed.  She stared at Ryven with a frown.

Ryven frowned. "Hi, Regi, nice to see you too." He nodded to Sahriah, who he had met only recently, though he remembered liking her well enough. "Sahriah."

She clearly looked displeased. "Ryven."

Regi raised his voice, "She is ten years old!"

Kat shrugged and answered for Ryven. "And this way she might learn how to make it to eleven."

Ryven sighed. "Honestly, it was in her best interest."

Regi turned to Sahriah, "She's in the medical bay. I'm going to pay her a visit." He glanced back to Kat and Ryven, "And prevent a war."

Sahriah nodded at Reginald, having expected him to react more harshly than that. "Fine." She remained still, looking back at Ryven. "What prompted you to decide that mutilating a 10 year old was an acceptable action?"

Ryven frowned. "Have you met this 10 year old?"

Sahriah's face darkened and she took a few steps towards Ryven. "I have. Infact, when I first met the child she was chained barely alive in a bedroom next to the bodies of her decapitated parents."

Ryven shrugged and responded sarcastically. "Aww, she had a rough childhood. Gee, why haven't I thought of using that as an excuse to be a jackass?"

Regi returned from the med bay, "She's sedated, but recovering. I'd imagine they can grow her a new finger." He walked back over to the group, looking at Kat, "And you just watched?"

Kat shrugged at Regi, "If there'd've been room I would've helped."

Ryven continued. "I grew up an orphan too, and yeah, it sucks.  But, running around pissing on everyone telling them how fancy you are is stupid and a great way to get yourself dead."

Regi shook his head, "I hope you don't let our son's finger get cut off just for being a child."

Sahriah glared at Ryven and then Kat. "Funny, you didn't seem to react the same way when Reginald slaughtered children in the past. I suppose violence on children is just ok when it's convienent for you."

Kat eyed Regi and Sahriah cooly, "I didn't see either of you react when she stabbed Literia trying to murder Amitel for nothing more than refusing to bow and scrape before her."

Sahriah looked back at Ryven. "I don't disagree that she has issues that need sorting out. I just think the way you went about it was incorrect."  Then to Kat: "I suppose grabbing her and taking her away from the rest of the children wasn't reacting then?"

Kat responded sarcastically. "Oh yes, let's give the vicious little murderess a time out. That's sure to help."

Ryven shrugged. "Pain is an excellent teacher. Disagree with my methods if you want. Telling me I'm basically subhuman after all I've done for the Empire, well, honestly she's lucky it was just a finger."

Sahriah waved a hand at them both dismissively. "Reginald's incompetence with dealing with her properly isn't an excuse to mutilate her, but I guess i'm wasting my words on people who cannot figure out another way to deal with a child." she walked past them off towards the gardens

Ryven sighed to himself. "I did what Justice required."

Kat shrugged. "Can't expect everyone to understand, can you?"

Ryven shook his head. "Honestly, I'm not always sure I do."

Regi sighed heavily, "And Lady Lianne won't like this." He then looked at Kat. "But how is our son?"

Kat chuckled. "Last time, Ryven had rammed a bottle through a corpmate's throat. I'm sure Shalee will probably be fairly relieved nobody died." She looked up at Regi, "Asleep, thank God. But he's well." She replied to the question about their son.

"Thank God?" Regi looked at her curiously.

Ryven felt he needed to correct Kat. "Last time, I got shot because I was wearing a people coat.  The time before that it was killing a corpmate."

Kat continued. "He still likes to wake up at all hours demanding food." Then, in response to Ryven's correction. "Right, I'd forgotten that we shot you over the people coat."

Regi shuddered at Kat's nonchalant reaction, but smiled regardless, "When will I get to see him?"

"Soon."

Regi repeated, quietly, nodding, "Soon." Then he quipped. "Soon seems to last quite a long time."

Kat nodded calmly, "At least it's not forever."

Regi sighed, "Yes, thank God for that."

Ryven lit a new cigarette, the old one having long since expired.

"May I speak with you privately?" Regi asked Kat.
She nodded, stood, and followed Regi.  She scrunched her nose a bit at Ryven's cigarette smoke. They both walked off the terrace down toward the shore.

Ryven sat and enjoyed his cigarette, the terrace now desolate except for him. "Alone at last." He spoke to no one.  He sat there for a while, pondering what would come of the night's events.  Then, finally, he stood and walked off the terrace to his shuttle at the landing pad.